Save Me - Nicki Minaj

Un-Think-Able... Pacing Myself...

Have you even been somewhere with a guy, he's kissing all over you, it's getting hot and heavy, and they whisper, "Don't fight it"?

And when they say that, it's like you melt... and what else is there to do other than let go?

Falling in love is hard. Especially when you been though so much and it's hard to see and feel because of all prior bs that you've been fed. Someone I used to know always told me that hindsight is 20/20. It is so much easier to situations clearer once you're on the other side of them...

Pacing myself... There are some people who are just hopeless romantics and just merely seem to fall in love with the thought of being loved/ in love. And after being single and misused and abused in situations, it's sooooooo easy to be that "hopeless romantic" at the slightest sign of someone showing interest.

I'm not gone lie, Of course I yearn to be in love and run off into the sunset and live happily ever after, but I have truly realized that I have GOT to pace my self in this relationship if I'm going to be successful...

WAIT OMG, did she just say relationship??? Ummm yes! I did, lol.

So here's the thing... I got this guy that I'm REALLY diggin on, but its like I keep holding back on myself because I'm afraid. I'm afraid of taking MYSELF to fast.

It's like I just sit and daydream and listen to Isley Brother's and think about how it could be and where it could go, but then I stop myself because I'm like "Ryan chill out, it hasn't even been 30 damn days... RELAX"...

Man, have you just ever had someone to read you so well, have you feeling like "Which one of my friends are you talking to? Because they telling you all my business".... Like someone must have told you EVERYTHING about me cause you doing everything right. Just like Nicki Minal say...

"Before I played it
You knew my hand
You could turn a free
Throw to a goal
Nigga got the peep
Hole to my soul"

But, in reality, I can't stop thinking and daydreaming, so I've made the decision that I would PRAY and continue to ask GOD to guide my heart so that I may follow it :)

So yea, I'm doing the Unthinkable... I'll make him my baby, even if it makes me look crazy... And If he asks me, I'm Ready :)

You give me a feeling that I never felt before

And I deserve it, I think I deserve it

It's becoming something that's impossible to ignore...And I can't take it :)